Rena
Firstly – Thank you for your amazing testimoney. I would love to read your book, biut I’m blind so myonly option is an audiobook version, which is not probably available.
I too have stared from a height to the ground below and wanted to end it all. I too have felt the bleakness and the canvas of abandonment, that leaves us alone and wanting more. I have wanted to die more times in my life than any other thing, but unlike you no vision, no sign of my life to be – No for me God came a calling, the very next day. A straqnge man approached me in a launderette and stared right through me, when i looked at him he said I can see God in you – I did not know what to say. He began to pray over me in tounges and then in english he said to me “You do not decide when you die, I Do”. My blood ran cold at that, no one was with me when I cried out that I wanted to die
So God put me in my place, but now I still want to die, but cannot, I pray for God to kill me, to let me die, but he will not His plan is foremost but I still fell lost and alone, a negative imprint upon this world
I would love to hear your story – Thank yopu for sharing what you did
Blessing – Paul Curwen
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